SEXUALITY IS FLUID.

It was sunday morning and it was raining heavily outside, Andy jolt up to the sound of thunderstorms. She looks over to her shoulder and sees someone sleeping next to her, the someone then stirred.

"Sorry Miranda, didn't meant to wake you up. I just got shocked from the thunderstorm, I'm scared of thunder, sorry, you can go back to sleep." Andy said.

Miranda then sat up, rubbed her eyes and look over at the clock.
It shows 8 in the morning.
Miranda then looked at Andy and smiled.

"It's fine Andrea. I woke up a few minutes ago, just before you. I thought that I might just close my eyes for a few minutes. Are you really scared of thunder?" Miranda asked.
Andy nodded.
"Why?" Miranda asked again.

Andy kept quiet for a few minutes and then speaks.
"When I was probably about 17 years old, me and my best friend, Trisha, loved to play in the rain. To me, it was kind of relaxing being in the rain, kind of it took my troubles away even for a few moments. At that time it was raining thunderstorm like it is now, just that it was night time. The thunder was really loud and Trisha asked me to stop playing and take cover. I ignored her as always. I was under a large tall tree when suddenly, the lightning struck the tree where I was. I wanted to run but my legs were stuck firmly to the ground. I was too dumbfounded. Trisha was telling me to get away, run away. The next thing I know, I woke up at the hospital. I broke my arm, some scratches on my legs and my head was bandaged.. damn bloody hurt. I was lucky I didn't died. Trisha saves me though she never said how. But ever since that day, each time I hear a thunderstorm or see a lightning, I get scared." Andy then looked at Miranda and chuckled.

"Well, you've got to have something that you fear or scares you, everybody has something." Miranda simply said and smiled at Andy.

Andy looked skeptical, then shrugged. "Maybe." After awhile she asked Miranda. "What's yours? I mean you said everybody has fears, so what's yours?"

Miranda who was looking at the big frame of Andy hanging by the wall, turned and looked Andy in the eyes. "I'm scared of losing someone that I truly love besides my kids."

Andy looked surprised.
She knows Miranda has already expressed her feelings to her, but she didn't know that Miranda really loved her and was scared of losing her.
Andy was speechless. She opened her mouth just to closed it again.
Miranda looked at Andy to see her struggling for words.
Miranda then quickly got off the bed and proceeded to the shower; sparing any embarrassment.
She didn't want to think about Andy reactions.
Andy was about to answer her when she saw Miranda running off to the bathroom.
Andy chuckled. Andy then waited for Miranda to come out of the bathroom so she can take shower as well. After about 45 minutes in the bathroom, Miranda got out. She was surprised to see Andy here. She thought Andy might have already left.

"What are you still doing here?" Miranda asked.

Andy laughed. "Miranda.. its my bedroom incase you've forgotten. Anyway, where do you want me to go? You were planning to stay in there forever to avoid me weren't you?" Andy glared.

Miranda felt her face was on fire. She didn't meant to run away or stay in the bathroom for so long. It just that she thought she might spare the embarrassment, and so she just kept quiet.

"Miranda.. Miranda.. Miranda, come on.. look at me." Andy said while walking towards her.

Miranda looked at Andy. Andy smiled and took Miranda's hand and walked towards the sofa.
Andy then seated directly in front of Miranda, still holding onto the hands.

"Hey.. Hey.. I didn't make you embarrassed am I?" Andy chuckled.
Miranda glared at her.
Andy then put up her hands as if to say she surrender, then hold Miranda's hand again and interwined them together. "You know Miranda, you looked adorably cute when you're embarrassed." Andy laughed.
Miranda scowled at her. "Don't be ridiculous Andrea."
"You see! You see! You're blushing again! Want me to get a mirror for you?" Andy said jokingly.
"Andrea, stop fooling around and be serious. I don't find anything laughable nor cute as you said about me." Miranda splat the word cute as if its poisonous.
Andy frowned. "Live a little eh. You can laugh and talk with my son for ages as if he's your bestfriend and you can't talk and laugh with me, the mother?" Andy pouts.
"Well, he's just a kid, Andrea. Besides, he's adorably cute and charming and he's smart.. like his mother." Miranda chuckled.
Andy stuck her tougue out at Miranda. Miranda rolled her eyes at this.

"Miranda." Andy asked.

"Hmm?" Miranda hummed.

"What's going to happen?" Andy asked.

"What's going to happen what?" Miranda said.

"I mean, what's going to happen with us? Are we together? Do I quit working for you as your assisstant? I don't know, but seriously, what's going to happen?" Andy asked with a serious tone.

Miranda looked at Andy surprisingly. "I don't know Andrea. I want us to be together. But you know, so far.. I've been chasing you and confessed my feelings for you. But I've never heard you saying anything." Miranda replied.

Andy looked at Miranda in the eyes. "I'm gonna confessed something, Miranda. I'm not usually the one that chases and confesses to someone. I don't know how to. I've been with the same girl for all my life and she's the one that initiated it first. After she was gone, I just work.. just make myself busy so that I won't think about her. I missed her and always do. There's no doubt about it. And then I work for you and fall for you. I try not to think about you but its hard. But at the same time, I thought I might disappoint Kayla. Somehow I always felt she's with me. And there's Rhyss. I felt bad leaving him with my parents. I should have been the one that cared and protect him but I couldn't just because he looked like his mommy. Each time I looked into his eyes, I felt Kayla looking at me. I don't know. I hope I'm not turning crazy." Andy chuckled.
"But each time I look at you, I don't know. My stomach fluttered. My heart was beating faster. I thought I was gonna pass out. But I managed to keep my emotions under controlled as time went on. In the end I accept the fact that I was falling for you. The night when I knew I had fallen for you, the night that you confessed to me, Kayla came. I mean into my dream.. I think so. She told me that she had known about it for sometime and asked me to act on my feelings, but I told her I couldn't. I said its like I'm betraying her.. then she said that I'm not betraying her.. she's already gone. She's happy being where she is now and told me that I should move on as well. She will always miss and loved me and Rhyss as well. She said sorry that she couldn't be there for our son to grow up, go to school and see him get married. She's not going to get angry with me if I'm falling for you. She even gave me a piece of advice. Saying 'sometimes we can't always have what we want. Sometimes life deals us a hand and we have to get on with it and sometimes we lose what we love the most in our lives because we cannot admit certain things to ourselves.' And the last thing she said, 'Believing and letting go. Remember, you only get the chance to live once, do anything that you want and don't regret it.' She said I love you and then she left. I woke up to the sound of thunder and I swear I felt her kissing.. --" Andy trailed off and her eyes went wide. 

Miranda was looking at her, suddenly felt scared. "What.. Andrea, what happened?" Miranda asked.

"Oh my god! Oh my god! That can't be. Oh my god! That couldn't be true." Andy mumbled, hands covering her face.

Miranda still staring at Andy.

"She was here.. last night." Andy said with a slight tremble voice, a drop of tears was falling.

Miranda felt her hair on the back of her neck stood. Never in a million years, has she felt eerie.
'HUH' was the only answered that Miranda could came up with.
Andy covered her face again.
Miranda asked her if she's okay, but Andy didn't replied back.
Miranda being worried, then walked towards Andy, lifted Andy head up gently. Miranda put a hand on Andy's cheek, which, despite her best efforts, was now tear stained.

"I just..." Andy trailed off.

"Believe," Miranda said, her eyes boring into Andy. "Believing is not just learning facts to prove something. It really isn't. Believing is letting go, completely. It's accepting, it's not questioning, it's falling. Believing is LETTING GO. Being free; totally free."

Andy felt dizzy; her mind spun and she was falling. Her cheek rested against Miranda's, her hands clutched Miranda's. The room was spinning in and out of focus.
A room of learned facts and established norms.
Miranda kissed Andy cheek very softly; her large, rosebud lips felt like petals.
Andy gripped her in a desperate hug, their bodies breathing in time with each other. Andy sobbed weakly, burying her face on Miranda's neck. Andy was falling; she felt she had let go of the edge of a cliff and was gliding blindly downwards, where it smelled of rain and leaves and wind...

Andy lifted her head and traced Miranda's face with trembling fingers. Miranda's hands caressed Andy waist and Andy brushed her lips over Miranda's forehead. They rested on her mouth and remained there, motionless, for a few moments.

"Believe, let go," Miranda whispered.

Andy kissed her, slowly, dreamily. Miranda responded delicately, tenderly, her fingers tracing Andy's whole body lightly. Their tongues met after a few minutes, with a deep intimacy that overwhelmed Andy. Miranda's hands rested on the top of Andy's shirt and, without a trace of awkward fumbling, she began to undo the buttons.

"Miranda..--" Andy was cut off by Miranda finger on Andy lips. "Shh Andrea.. Don't worry about me." Miranda said.

Andy kissed Miranda deeply, passionately, letting her hands explore her thighs beneath the black cotton dress. Miranda pulled off Andy's shirt and unclasped her bra with ease. She caressed her breasts delicately, her thumbs massaging Andy's nipples.

Andy unzipped Miranda's nightgown at the back and pulled it off, then removed her modestly laced bra. She broke from Miranda's lips and began kissing her neck, moving slowly downwards, finally resting upon Miranda's breasts, kissing them both in turn, biting very lightly as she did so.

Miranda breathed heavily and lay back on the sofa. She pulled Andy toward her and kissed her with an intimacy and mastery that seemed to send sparks of light in front of Andy's eyes. When at last they broke apart, Andy sat upright and gazed at Miranda's almost naked body, lying beside her. Her skin was so pale, almost transparent, like gossamer. Her waist curved so gracefully, her breasts were so feminine and full. Andy thought – no, she believed – that she had never seen anything so beautiful as the sight of this ethereal, dream-like woman.

Andy leaned over to Miranda, told her that she has fallen for her as well, and began to kiss, with inexplicable pleasure, every inch of Miranda's body.

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"Good mowing momma.. Miwanda!" Rhyss greets then kissed Andy cheek once he stepped the kitchen. He then went to Miranda and kissed Miranda's cheek.

Andy and Miranda were shocked by Rhyss's displayed.
Rhyss thought he had done something wrong and was about to apologise when Miranda told him it's alright.

"Rhyss.. kiddo.. you can't kiss..--" Andy was interrupted by Miranda sudden cough. Miranda then shook her head as if to say 'No. It's alright.' Andy just nodded.

Rhyss looked at Miranda and his mom back and forth. He then chuckled.

"What's wrong kiddo?" Andy asked.

Rhyss just chuckled and shook his head saying nothing. Andy shrugged off.
Rhyss took his seat and Andy set a plate of pancakes in front of him.
Andy asked Miranda if she wanted pancakes, Miranda nodded and so the three of them sat on the dining table quietly and ate their breakfast. Rhyss then broke the silence.

"Momma." Rhyss asked.

"Yes, kiddo." Andy replied.

"Awe you going back to New Yowk?"

Miranda and Andy just looked at each other before looking back at Rhyss.

"I'm not sure Rhyss. I haven't discussed with Miranda yet. Why?"

"Awe you bwinging me back to New Yowk? I dun want to stay hewe anymowe.. nana and dada no mowe.." Rhyss trailed off.

Andy looked as if she was about to cry.
Her son was asking her to take him wherever she go now. He's scared that Andy might leave him somewhere.
Andy got up from her seat and hugged Rhyss saying that she won't leave him no matter what and that wherever she go, she's taking him with her.
Andy promise him. Andy then looked at Miranda. Miranda was helding back her tears as well.

After their breakfast, they went and sat in their living room. Miranda and Rhyss was sitting at the sofa while Andy was sweeping the floor. Miranda wanted to talk to Andy about her kids, but didn't know how to approach it. Rhyss saw her become uncomfortable and asked her some questions.

"Miwanda.. do you have kids.. like me?" Rhyss asked.

Miranda was thankful about having Rhyss here.
Rhyss somehow knows what she's feeling or thinking. It's like they have this connection of telepathy. Miranda mouthed to Rhyss 'Thank You'.
Andy, who was sweeping the floor, suddenly stops.
She has forgotten about the twins. She has already thought about the twins and wanted to bring the subject up to Miranda but she had forgotten.
Thank God for Rhyss! He just know when and how to talk.
Andy then went and joined them. Miranda saw her approaching and smiled before looking back at Rhyss.

"Yes Rhyss. I do have kids like you. They are twins girl, named Caroline and Cassidy and they are 13 this coming december." Miranda said.

Rhyss grinned. "Weally! When? am thwee on decembew second."

Miranda and Andy chuckled.

"Their's are on the fifth." Miranda said.

"Ouhhh. Can we celebwate togethew pwease, pwease? It would be gweat. I want to know them." Rhyss said excitedly but his voice held a begging tone.

Miranda and Andy looked at each other with amused. Miranda then nods, giving the permission that he allowed.
Andy said thank you.

"Kiddo, Miranda said yes. So yea, you could celebrate with the twins." Andy said.

Rhyss looked at Miranda and Andy back and forth.
He then kept quiet for awhile.
"YESSS! AM FINALLY GOING TO NEW YOWK! YAYYY! THANK YOU MOMMA. THANK YOU MIWANDA!" Rhyss shouted excitedly.
He then jumped onto Miranda and Andy and give them a hugs and a kisses on their cheek. He then proceed on telling them how they were going to make their birthday together. Miranda and Andy just looked at each other lovingly and chuckled.

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